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Connections

On a morning not long ago, I stood at the bus stop with Michael while we waited for his school bus to arrive.

One of the other boys at the stop asked me if I noticed what was new.

“Uh, let’s see… your jacket, and your socks!”

“That’s right! Aren’t they awesome?” He yanked off a shoe to give me the full awesome experience. He went on to say that he’d gotten them at the Nike plant. His older brother chimed in that their dad works there and so they get a great discount.

“That is a great deal,” I said, marveling.

Soon we were joined by another neighbor and her daughters, then another. Across the street, another neighbor stood on the corner carefully raking bright magenta and orange leaves from a planter and on to the sidewalk. I called across the street to jokingly ask whether he’d rake my leaves too.

“Well, there’s a waiting list,” he called back.

I laughed.

Even as recently as last spring, we did not really know any of these people. Though they have been our neighbors for the last eight years, we had not met a single one of them.

That changed this summer, because of my wife’s open heart surgery.

Ever since we moved here in 2003, the only people on our street that we knew on a first-name basis lived across the street from us. We had a nodding acquaintance with neighbors next door, and might even spare a wave to the others, but that was the extent of our relationship. Pitiful.

All these years, we lived pretty much alone, though we were right in the midst of so many other lives.

And then, we started walking.

Walking was absolutely necessary for my wife’s recovery. The doctor told her she needed to keep moving and get strong, and walking was the best way.

It was slow going at first: we’d shuffle up the street and slowly amble around one cul-de-sac. On the sidewalks, the kids riding their bikes or doing chalk drawings or tossing a basketball through a hoop and the parents chatting amongst themselves would watch us pass by, but  would say nothing.

Every day we walked. My wife would walk faster and faster, and we’d travel farther and farther. Some times, we’d hear a comment come back: “You’re moving faster! Good work!”

On one pass, a curious neighbor (the leaf-raker at the start of the story) finally asked what the deal was: why did we walk by every night? We engaged in conversation, learned each other’s names and discovered that he was retired from teaching at a local university.

We soon met another neighbor, then another, and another… they all started to count on seeing us walking past every evening.

We discovered that Michael’s friend “J” lived on one of the cul-de-sacs on our route, which led to conversations with his parents and eventually led to Michael and J learning to ride their bikes as well as forming a great friendship.

Our presence, our connection to the neighbors near Michael’s bus stop made it easy for Michael to fit in to the group of kids who regularly ride the bus to school, and made riding the bus something to look forward to every morning.

This led to bringing those kids down to our street on Halloween night, now that they knew who Michael is and had expectations of seeing a really spooky place down a road they had ignored for all these years.

Which leads us to where we are now, fully engaged in friendly connections with the neighbors, something I hadn’t ever expected in this area, and something I hadn’t really enjoyed for probably 40 years, when I was growing up on that little street in Carmichael, where we were all so close.

I’m really looking forward to next Summer, when we can all be outside again, forging deeper connections.

Success!

I just found out that my wife’s surgery went through without a hitch.

She’ll be in the hospital for a few days still.

The real healing will be in the days, weeks and months that follow as she and I commit to the lifestyle changes we’ve only toyed with until now.

I refuse to lose her, or even risk her health any further.

In Sickness…

When I was 20 or so, I had a blurry, abstract vision of what marriage was like: husband relaxing in leather chair reading paper in one room, children playing noisily in another room, wife in yet another room cheerfully going about her business. Everyone content, everyone occupied. And everyone keeping safe distances; each giving nothing and requiring nothing.

“Marriage is a lot of work,” people would say. And I’d nod and consider those words, but never appreciate them. “Marriage can be really hard,” they’d say. How hard could it be, if two people love each other enough? What more is there?

A lot more.

Even at this late point in my life, I am still learning what “a lot of work” means. And even if the circumstances are extremely troublesome, the work isn’t unpleasant when it is for the benefit of someone you love dearly.

In December of 2008, just after Christmas, my wife had a heart attack. She was attended to by the best team in the Pacific Northwest, and after placement of a stent in the blocked heart vessel, she was pretty much good as new.

Until just recently, when we discovered that the stent has closed over with scar tissue, bringing her pretty much right back to where she was. Ever the tough cookie, her body responded by growing brand new blood vessels in an attempt to bypass the blockage. Amazing, how God designed us that way.

She’s scheduled for bypass surgery on Tuesday.

I don’t mind saying that I’m pretty scared. And so is she. Even though we know that the hospital is widely known for superior cardiac care. Even though we know that the surgeon is one of the best in the business, and he assured us that this operation is “a chip shot.”

Even so: this is very, very scary.

But I must be strong and confident and protect my wife, and provide the bedrock foundation that she needs right now, and before her surgery, and when she wakes up afterwards.

And while she’s away recuperating at the hospital over the following week, I’ll need to be firm and efficient at home directing kids to their tasks and ensuring that she has a calm, clean and pleasant home to return to. And I’ll need to be sure the bills are paid, the meals are cooked, the lawns are mowed, the laundry is washed and the dishes are done. And I must tend to the deadlines I have at work. And I must bring the kids to the hospital to visit their mom, to cheer and encourage her to do her part in getting well and coming home.

This is my work. It is part of the vows that I took. It is hard work. It takes a lot to keep it together and do it all correctly.

But for her, I would do it all a thousand times over for the remainder of our life together, and I’ll smile just knowing I can keep her.

Progress

Not long ago, I posted an update on our continuing efforts to help Michael succeed, socially and academically. You can read about that here.

I am very happy to report that after five weeks, we’ve seen a marked improvement in Michael’s behavior at school.

Before, I would get a phone call from the principal at LEAST twice a week. Now, she has no reason to call.

Before, Michael’s school day report would show one or two smiley faces out of a possible six. Now, he gets five or six.

Before, the notes that would come home would talk about how Michael cried all day or refused to do his work. Now, we get notes coming home saying that he did well at writing workshop and did his math work.

What’s really changed is his ability to control himself enough to stop his mischievous impulses and to make better choices.

I have to say, I think the Concerta is helping a lot.

A doctor or pharmacist might describe its effect on neurons and serotonin and stuff, with all clinical terminology. Meanwhile, in my mind I’m thinking:

As I’d said before, the point of medication isn’t to calm him down or turn him into a zombie.

It’s to provide just enough extra boost to his own ability to enable him to control himself. That’s all.

He’s just as random, loud, joyful, energetic, exploratory, relentless, exuberant and expressive as he’s always been.

Only now he can be all that when he wants to, and keep it contained when he needs to.

Alphabet Soup

We have an official diagnosis, and a pathway to wellness.

The story begins quite a while ago, and most recently came to the fore when Michael began Kindergarten. Read about that here.

Every day there’s something. Michael doesn’t do his work. Michael isn’t paying attention. Michael is mixing it up with the other kids. Michael is crying and refuses to be comforted. Michael is wandering the halls instead of playing outside at recess.

Every day the reports come home, every day I have to talk with him about what behavior is acceptable and what isn’t.

In the space of three months I’ve been called by the principal more times than I would have ever expected to spanning my career as a parent. Her calls usually go the same way: Michael’s in her office, Michael did this or that, she just doesn’t know what to do, she might have to suspend him, and do I have any suggestions (well, I’d suggest we get another principal, like the guy we had before, but…)? Some times she tells me I have to come get him. Like I don’t have work to do or anything. And didn’t she say that they were the experts, that they know what’s best for our child? I have my doubts.

His mom and I want to nip this in the bud. We do not want our child to be labeled “The Troublemaker” or “The Bad Kid”. He may end up believing it himself.

We have had many meetings with Michael’s teacher. We have had many meetings with the school psychologist and the school counselor. We have worked out plans and shared ideas and thoughts and anecdotes. The school psychologist suggested that Michael was autistic. This, because she saw him run on his tiptoes once. Once.

In addition to all of this, Michael has been seeing an independent psychologist every week. This has been where we’ve made the most progress.

She has diagnosed Michael with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder and perhaps a touch of Oppositional Defiance Disorder. ADHD, OCD, ODD. A lot of Ds going on there.

She suggested a first-level medication to help with that, so his pediatrician prescribed Concerta.

In case there are those who aren’t familiar with ADHD or the medications prescribed for it, let me provide a little insight. Concerta, like Ritalin and others, is a brain stimulant. The theory is that kids with ADHD (or ADD) are deficient in the level of internal stimulation their brains are receiving naturally. This makes them easily bored and distracted as they seek external stimulation, to “feed the need”. The Concerta helps boost the internal stimulation level, allowing them to control themselves and not seek so much external stimulation. Contrary to popular belief, medications like this are not depressants; they don’t act to slow a kid down.

Anyway, Michael has been on Concerta for a week now. And he’s been visiting the psychologist for four weeks, and his mom and I are getting some training in how best to interact with him when he gets into certain behavioral states: how to ignore tantrums, how to field repetitive questions, how to praise those behavior traits we like to see, and how to help extinguish those we don’t.

We’ve all learned a ton in this time.

And while we can’t say Michael’s cured, we can see some improvement. There have been ups and downs, but overall it’s looking good.

Time will tell, but I’m willing to take the small victories and keep making the baby steps toward wellness.

Weekend Update

So how was your weekend?

It rained here. My wife tells me it rains here every year at this time, and I just don’t seem to remember that. I don’t remember a lot of stuff.

Every Memorial Day weekend I attempt to smoke a large hunk of meat for dinner. That is, I haul out an electric smokehouse and set a beef brisket inside it and let it smoke for the better part of the day. It’s something I’m trying to establish as a tradition, just so my kids will have something to laugh about amongst themselves and share to their children and grandchildren later on in their lives. So far, so good; I’ve provided plenty of fodder for laughter.

Last Thursday my wife was diagnosed with pneumonia. She’s pretty much been coughing non-stop for two weeks now, the poor thing.

But this of course means she’s out of action, and I am left alone with only a lethargic older sister to help care for Michael, who was beyond wild for the last three days.

I’m not sure what’s in his rice milk, but the kind of energy he’d been sporting could easily allow him to leap into a low Earth orbit if he so desired. He’s been up at around 6:30 every day, rarin’ to go and making demands.

In an effort to help curb her coughing, Sunday night my wife tried sleeping on the couch so she could sit upright. The cat did her level best to ensure that sleep was not to be had, coming in from outside and applying her damp fur to our faces and tromping around on our midsections every thirty minutes. And of course she ignored the very active and loud mouse that was scurrying around under the stove (we think she figures she’s made her quota of critter control by bringing two birds into the house last week, so she should be exempt from mouse duty). And as kitty and mouse settle down to relax after a hard night of keeping the people awake, Michael clocks in at around 5:45 AM and begins his shift, climbing up on his mom’s face and demanding Reese’s Puffs.

Yesterday I’d had enough of his tearing around like a Jack Russel Terrier on his fourth espresso and bribed his sister into taking him to the park for a little while. The clouds had been spotty at best and it was dry all morning, with very little wind.

I drove them to the park and told his sister to call me when they were ready to be picked up. Then I headed home in peace. The first peace I’d had for days.

As I pulled into the driveway, the clouds burst forth in a torrent.

“It’ll pass,” I told myself. “It can’t last long.”

I had barely gotten into the house when the call came: Michael says it’s too wet to play, and he wants to come home.

Sigh.

To add to the fun, my wireless router upped and died on me, forcing me to buy a new one. I had a Linksys router before, a real solid system that just plain worked from the time I first plugged it in until the time it sputtered its last packet. It was easy to set up, easy to use, and came with a nice interface that stayed out of my way until I needed it.

Then I bought this Belkin “Play” router, and was taken in by the hype of “just plug it in and you’re ready to go!”

Not so much.

The bottom line is, the Belkin wireless router is a diva. It demands constant attention, and will spontaneously go into sulk mode and drop the internet connection if it becomes offended for any reason. You have to gently, carefully coax it back into service. It also has a feature in which it automatically restarts, on schedule. I think it’s the equivalent of a “spa day”, because it’s out of commission for forty-five minutes during this time, and it’s going to happen whether you like it or not. Trying to set up a wireless connection was impossible. I know, it’s a wireless router and all, but there’s obviously more to it than just having another wireless system nearby and using the same security protocol and all that. No, there’s a pin involved, and timeouts, and security checks, and registrars, and handshaking, and synchronization, and antidisestablishmentarianism… anyway, like a true paranoid-schizophrenic, this Belkin wireless router would refuse to acknowledge any such capability as routing things wirelessly.

This morning I have carefully sealed the Belkin Play router back into it’s snug little box along with the cables, disk and power supply for its return to Costco. It went without a fight, but I believe it must have angered the modem during its two-day tenure, as the modem now refuses to connect to the internet.

By this morning, I can report that Michael’s mom is recovering, thank God, since she’s scheduled to be at work tomorrow. She got some new cough medicine and actually slept all night long last night, in our room, away from creatures. And Michael didn’t get up until after I’d gotten dressed and was ready for him.

So… I’m glad the weekend is over. Thank God for the men and women who’ve given their lives for their country, so we can be free. I don’t think we observed this fact much this weekend. I had my own battles at home to deal with.

Myocardial Monday: Inflammation

A few days after Christmas of 2008, Michael’s Mommy suffered a heart attack. By the grace of God, she lives to tell the tale. As a continual reminder of how your diet can affect your body, we here at Being Michael’s Daddy have declared the last Monday of the month to be “Myocardial Monday.” Here we’ll offer information about food and nutrition in hopes that it will help others avoid facing what could be a fatal condition. Yes, I know it’s not the last Monday of the month. I’ve been busy.

Today we’re going to explore a buzzword that seems to be one of the latest health concerns: inflammation.

What is inflammation?

Inflammation is a swell thing.

Actually, in many cases, it isn’t so swell.

Inflammation is your body’s response to injury: It’s sending in the cavalry. White blood cells are sent to an area where there’s an injury in the body. In some cases, you can see or feel the inflammation: sinus problems, arthritis, a welt on the hand, swelling from a bee sting. These white blood cells arrive at the scene, and move in, doing their work in preventing infection and releasing chemicals that fix things up.

So what? A little bump or a stuffy nose. What’s the big deal?

The problem occurs when there are inflammatory actions in blood vessels. When the inside of a blood vessel becomes inflamed, the swelling that occurs impacts the flow of blood through the vessel.

Imagine a busy street downtown mid day. A pot hole appears out of nowhere, and workers are dispatched to fix it up. What are they going to do? Shut down at least one lane of traffic. Now you have a traffic jam. Let’s hope the pothole doesn’t get any bigger, or they’ll have to close down two lanes – or worse – the whole street. And if so, let’s hope that street doesn’t lead to something vital, like, say, your heart. Or your brain. That would be the start of a really bad day.

Yikes, that’s horrible!

Oh, but it gets worse.

The injured areas inside blood vessels tend to snag LDL cholesterol that’s gliding along in the blood. As these little fat globs collect, they oxidize and explode, then build up and calcify, turning into plaque which then gets covered over with a layer of asphalt – err, scar tissue. This alone is enough to completely close off a vessel. And there’s your heart attack, embolism or stroke.

Isn’t there some way to roto-rooter them off?

You wouldn’t want that. If one of these little plaque bombs gets dislodged, it goes floating on down your blood stream in one big clump until it gets to a vessel it can’t squeeze through – which will cause a heart attack, embolism or stroke.

Hold on – ibuprofen reduces inflammation. Can’t I just take that?

For the occasional headache or muscle ache, yes. But not for this. Popping NSAIDs (non-steroidal anti-inflammatories) every day will actually have the opposite effect, as it interferes with your body’s ability to control its inflammatory response, which will ultimately make matters worse.

And it doesn’t stop there.

There are studies that link chronic inflammation with development of cancer, Alzheimer’s disease, diabetes, and a whole slew of health problems.

Take a look:

I’m doomed.

Now, now. Let us not abandon hope. I wouldn’t have brought you this far without offering the lifeline.

One of the best things you can do to fight the inflammation is adjust your lifestyle.

Eating the rights foods: Get plenty of Omega 3’s, like those in Salmon and cold water fish, flaxseed and walnuts; fiber in whole grains and fresh fruit; antioxidants found in fresh grapes, blueberries, broccoli and soy products. I’ve discussed Omega 3’s and fiber in past Myocardial Monday posts. I’ll get to the purpose of antioxidants in a future post.

Stay away from sugar, particularly high fructose corn syrup and white refined sugar. Not because they’re so horrible in and of themselves, but because they’re so easily absorbed and bring nothing with them to help the body deal with them.

Sugar? What’s that got to do with inflammation?

Glad you asked. But you’ll have to wait until next time, when I discuss Type II Diabetes, and the horror that is sugar.

Studies indicate that turmeric may prove helpful in preventing buildup of atherosclerosis, or blocked arteries. It lowers LDL and inhibits its oxidation, which is good: oxidized LDL is what sticks to artery walls and causes blockage. By the way, it’s pronounced “TER – mer – ick”, not “TOO – mer – ick”. But whatever.

Inflammation may sound like a fairly innocuous issue, but being aware of it is critical. While it is a normal body process, when it gets out of control it can cause all kinds of problems. Just a few little adjustments can make a huge difference in the length and quality of your life.

The First Day

I had a big to-do list this last weekend. I had every intention of taking down all of the Christmas decorations and packing them up. My wife and I had some shopping to do, as we both had gift cards on the verge of expiration. I had intended to make pizza dough, which requires getting an early start. I had a blog post that I was late putting up. Lots to do.

And as I lay there, staring up at the ceiling of room 43 in the emergency department of the hospital, I thought about how at this point I’d be happy just to be home.

My wife was right next to me, holding my hand, being soothing, but occasionally reminding me how much I’d scared her earlier.

It all began the week before. I’d called my doctor to schedule an appointment to follow up on my blood pressure medication. While I talked with him, I brought up another unpleasant medical issue, one that a lot of men face when they start getting on in years. While I did not relish the thought of the exam that would be necessary, I did hold out hope for a long term solution.

At the end of my exam my doctor prescribed a new medication.

“It’s an alpha blocker. Should help with your blood pressure too,” he said, cheerily. That’s good news, I thought. Anything that helps get my blood pressure down sounds good to me. Before I left he gave me the usual admonition to get out there and exercise, and check into the Mediterranean Diet for help with my nutritional intake. He’s very encouraging when it comes to being healthy, starting with diet and exercise. Gotta like that approach.

My wife picked up my new medicine on Friday. It’s a cute little periwinkle pill. “It might make him sleepy,” the pharmacist said, “so be sure he takes it at night before bed time.”

Sleepy. I always prefer sleepy when it’s bed time. They go together well.

After taking the aforementioned little periwinkle pill and climbing in to bed, I relaxed… but soon noticed that I wasn’t all that sleepy. In fact, my heart was pounding a little.

But I eventually drifted off, and slept well.

My wife and I woke at nearly seven-thirty Saturday morning. I felt great.

“We slept in!” My wife observed happily. “To some, seven-thirty is the crack of dawn. For us, it’s sleeping in,” she went on. We both laughed at the thought.

Our conversation turned to other topics, and I got up to use the bathroom. I was standing there, listening to my wife’s thoughts about the academic situation we’re facing with one of our teenagers, when suddenly things changed.

The world started getting dark. It was as if someone were lowering the shades on my eyes.

My heart gave a couple of plaintive skips, usually a precursor to arrhythmia.

“Oh, shoot,” I said. ”This isn’t good.” The thought of “I need to sit down” had almost finished crossing my mind…

Dreaming: something urgent and incomprehensible…

Now I hear a loud snore, one that I recognize as my own.

My wife is screaming. “I’m calling 9-1-1! Tom! Can you hear me?”

I realize that I’m waking up, but I’m not in bed. There is lots of pain. I am curled up against the bathtub, staring at the Easter Island Tiki head planter that’s now lying in the tub, along with every other tropical-themed knick-knack we had set up along the edge of the tub.

“Wha?” I slur.

“YOU PASSED OUT! I’M CALLING 9-1-1!”

“I did? Why? Where am I?” Stupid question, and so cliché. But honestly, I couldn’t be sure of much at the moment.

Little by little I did regain my faculties and with her help clambered to my feet. She helped me out of the bathroom and to the bed.

“We’re going to the hospital. Let me get S up so she can take care of Michael,” she said. While she was gone I reconstructed what must have happened: when I stood up to go to the bathroom, I must have fainted.

Ladies and gentlemen, this guy does not faint. I have never fainted in my life. I have been through three births and two weddings. My entryway into sleep has always been one of choice and comfort.

So… off to the hospital we go. My wife is concerned that there may be more going on that just a reaction to the medication, and because I’d struck my head a good one, she was more than a little worried that I might have a brain bleed or something.

The scans and tests and everything came back fine; no clots, no brain bleeds, no abnormal med levels, normal sinus heart rhythm, all that. Doc handed down a diagnosis of “vasovagal syncope” – which is a fancy way of saying that I fainted. He added something else that was news to me: when you urinate, your blood pressure drops. In my case, it was fast and severe – enough for me to lose consciousness.

Didn’t know that. Would have been nice to have read that on the medication fact sheet, had that little tidbit been there.

I had plenty of time to ruminate while we waited for the “all clear to leave.”

I’ve been a guest of this hospital too many times. For heart arrhythmia episodes, back surgeries, and now this. I shouldn’t be a frequent flyer here, I’m only 46. Inside I still feel like a dorky kid, one who’s been around for a few years.

But most of the time my body feels like that of an old man: tired, pale, weak. I remind myself of a doddering codger, ashen grey and scarcely able to stand, let alone walk.

I know it shouldn’t be this way.

And I know that the one thing that contributes to all of these problems, and so many others, is something I have full control over: my weight.

I am too fat.

It’s that simple.

And I have had enough of it.

What makes it worse is that I know better. My wife had a heart attack just a little over a year ago, but apparently I haven’t absorbed that fact deeply enough to truly change my own behavior, which largely consists of too much junk food and not enough healthy; too much sitting and not enough moving.

It is up to me to change. I have to, because my wife and kids need me. I have the will, and I have the motivation right now. I pray to God that it’ll stick this time.

That old saying “Today is the first day of the rest of your life” always bugged me. But it’s suitable, and I’ll claim it. Today is the first day of turning the ship around, heading toward “health” and ordering all engines full.

Anniversary

Yesterday marked one year since my wife had her heart attack. She and I rang in the new year in her hospital room, toasting with sparkling pear juice after a dinner of home made chicken noodle soup (her favorite).

I’ve been ruminating about that, and how far we’ve come since then.

On the plus side, it precipitated some positive changes in our life.

We quit doing dessert every night: no more cream pies or ice cream. Instead, we have home made apple crisp from time to time.

We are eating more vegetables. Our dinners (and lunches) are more geared around the salad, choosing appropriate sides and proteins to go along with it. We’ve incorporated some new recipes into our regular dinner choice rotation, including ratatouille (made the way Remi the rat does in the Pixar movie of the same name). At least three times a week our breakfast is hot cereal consisting of toasted oatmeal, quinoa, flax seed and walnuts. And on those weekends we have pancakes or waffles, they’re made with whole wheat flour and flax seed meal.

We bought a series of books called “Eat This, Not That” which opened our eyes to the reality of nutrition, and how small changes can make a huge impact without forcing impossible expectations or unreasonable diet restrictions. For example, reading the nutrition labels on packaged foods can reveal how much high fructose corn syrup is in nearly every processed food you buy, including bread.

Still, there’s a lot of room for improvement.

One of the things my wife and I both struggle with is will power, and remaining fixed on our health goal.

We both are prone to “falling off the wagon” when it comes to food, particularly when that food is chocolate. Or at least partly chocolate. Carbohydrates are yummy, it’s an inescapable fact. We both like food, and don’t do well with portion control. Being hungry after eating the proper amount of calories means that at some point, we’re going to want to eat more calories.

And of course we need to get up and move more; get out and exercise. We have had spurts of activity, where we’ll go for a half-hour walk every night for a few weeks… but then we start slacking off, and pretty soon we’re not walking at all.

We now have a Wii Fit Plus, which is phenomenally motivating for getting us up and moving. It keeps track of your weight and body mass index, allows you to set goals and provides enough nagging to keep us going. I swear it said “oof” the first time I stood on that board. And I was very sad to see my little “Mii” character balloon up to walrus size once it calculated my BMI.

The games and training found in Wii Fit Plus are all aerobic activities, and they’re all very addictive – I find myself looking forward to practicing Kung Fu moves, jogging along with a kitty cat, throwing a Frisbee to a dog on the beach or doing the step aerobic dances. My wife is getting to be a grand champion hula-hooper.

We keep our eyes on the objective of being healthier, thinner, and more energetic in 2010. We’ll keep up with our diet changes and make further improvements. We’ll be moving more and eating less.

As I keep telling my wife: “We have to reach old age together. I’ve got plans for you.”

Status Update

Or, the virtual dumping of the junk drawer onto the clear surface that is my blog.

There’s actually not much to write about lately; it’s sad.

Michael still asks fifteen gazillion questions every day, questions about everything and anything and nothing, questions that have no logical answer, questions that make no sense, questions to which only he knows the answer, questions about questions.

His entire day is one gigantic question mark. From dawn until dusk. When his feet hit the ground, he revs up the question engine, and it does not cease until daddy has firmly ensconced him in his bed.

I’ve written about this before, fairly recently, so there’s no need to cover that ground again. Suffice it to say, it hasn’t let up. It’s only increased in ferocity and quantity. He’s added “What happens when I…” to his repertoire, though. That’s new. Like if the topic of conversation deals with jello melting, he’ll ask “What happens when I melt?” Or if we’re discussing mowing the lawn, he’ll ask “What happens when I get mowed?”

Moving on.

He ended his two-year stint on anti-seizure medication just a couple of months ago. He took his last dose one Sunday night, and that was it. We were prepared with emergency anti-seizure medication, just in case he had an episode… but it never happened. He’s been completely free of any myoclonic spasms, and has shown no other signs of medication withdrawal. At the end of next month we can pretty much rest assured that he’ll be okay from now on. Closing that chapter.

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Yesterday, on the way out of his drop-in day care, we happened to pass by a classmate. A “pretty girl,” he called her. I asked what her name was, but he didn’t know. She was chatting with her mom, telling of her adventures that day. He turned around to say something; I assumed he was going to ask her name.

Instead, he said “Your dress is… I love your… I… I… I love you.”

She giggled.

“Laying it on a bit thick, aren’t you?” I said. Her mom laughed.

“Daddy!” he said.

“I think you’re just cute,” the pretty girl said.

“Oh, no!” Michael said, giving himself a face-palm. The girl giggled all the way back to her mom’s car.

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In a short while, Michael will be starting school in another in-home day care place this year, one that comes highly recommended as providing structure, individual attention and real learning targeted to Michael’s age group. He’s already visited and is very excited about going. We’re excited to see him learn and grow this year, and hopefully move into a phase that goes beyond asking random questions and demanding to watch movies endlessly.

Summer is coming to an end. Three teenage girls will be going back to school. One will be starting high school, and will be in for a real culture shock, going from a routine of getting up at eleven AM to getting up at six, and then having to actually use her head for more than just as a place to perch her headphones.